Im so tired, I dont even know what to write. Sleeping is impossible... beyond newborn impossible. Still having a ton of BH's, sometimes patterned for a few hours but they have yet to take me into labor.

Other than that we're ready - We had our car seat inspection done and its now installed properly and we know how to use it properly. Still dont have the van bought- DH is on serious deadline at work and has a ton on his plate. I dont see it getting done until he's off work and home with us... which I guess is fine (I trust him to buy us a van).

I'm a smidge bummed we arent having a shower- a friend of DH's at work had long ago asked if it was ok for her to throw us one but with everything going on at their work I guess its not going to happen.. I'm not bummed because of not getting "stuff"- we're blessed in that we can afford to buy everything we need- its more that our family and friends are so far away and its a reminder of how alone we are here. I think we will have a welcome baby BBQ once I've recovered - really I just want everyone to come together and welcome Kyle into the world. We dont need stuff, I just need friends...