I always check on Ben before I go to sleep- I go into his room and kiss him and make sure hes breathing (yes, hes 8 and I still do this!). Last night I realized I'm going to have two little boys to check on before bed, and I was overwhelmed with gratitude and thanks to the powers that be.

I dont spend a lot of time thinking about Kyle actually being here- I know he's coming, but what he smells like, looks like, sounds like is all kind of imaginary right now. But, in ~7 weeks time I'm going to be tucking two kids into bed... theres going to be a whole other person here! The nursery that I've spent weeks getting ready, the clothes in the dresser, the little bathtub, the swing, the box of diapers, are all going to be used by someone. I've always known it in my head, but I'm starting to feel it. :)